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2004

is the last time I weighed 256 lbs. Until this morning, that is, and 2 or 3 of them might be from last night’s alchohol and yesterday morning’s sandwich. Once I rehydrate, I’ll check it again.

That’s 30 some pounds since April 10, with a week when I just did maintenance. I was going to take next week off, but I think I’ll just start a day later, and push into the 240s.

1994 was the last time I weighed 245, the expected loss from another cycle. It bears noting that in 1991, I weighed 145, after a bout of vegetarianism. olympic cycling training, and divorce/homelessness. After a lot of thought. I think I’ll be “happy” with something in the 230 range, as long as I’m not visibly fat. But being the meticulous individual I am, I’m wanting to “fix” 10 years of bad habits.

The booze is a major factor. I’m not going to say I am an alchoholic, but I was very definitely a drunk, and as recently as 2004 it had some negative consequences in my life. When I think about the person that I was, and some of the things that I did, I’m frankly amazed that I’ve know some of my current crop of frinds for well over a decade.

Of course, when I was a drunken prick, I was happy, and beautiful women were falling from the sky. The irony of this is not lost on me at all.

P.S. I’m doing it with this

P.P.S

My buddy Joe is amazingly crazy with his weight loss, but is an inspiration to me. His plan is a bit more

EXTREEEEEEEEME

, but it does work.

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If…

your life was a Pearl Jam song, what would it be?

Pretty sure this is mine, although the lyrics do not do the song itself justice. The guitars and drums on this cut are to me every reason to like Pearl Jam, even if this was not their

Best.

Album.

Ever.

I took a drive today
Time to emancipate
I guess it was the beatings made me wise
But I’m not about to give thanks or apologize
I couldn’t breathe holdin’ me down
Hand on my face kissin’ the ground
Enmity gauged united by fear
‘Posed to endure what I could not forgive…

I seem to look away
Wounds in the mirror waved
It wasn’t my surface most defiled
Head at your feet fool to your crown
Fist on my plate, swallowed it down
Enmity gauged, united by fear
Tried to endure what I could not forgive

Saw things
Clearer
Once you, were in my…Rearview mirror…

I gather speed from you fucking with me
Once and for all I’m far away
I hardly believe, finally the shades…are raised…hey…

Saw things so much clearer
Once you, once you…
Rearview mirror

Saw things so much clearer
Once you…oh yeah…

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